Hello dear friend.
I waited for the longest time before I sent this. I needed to be sure, and, because I love you I didn’t want to hurt you, or offend you, or cause consternation or misunderstanding.
But the time has come. I want to share this with you. Because for me it has become a part of who I am and in order to be that person, whole and open and authentic and true, I need to be honest about this too.
You know I went to church, maybe it’s where we met or how we connected, my faith in God and Jesus steered my life, they were my compass, my anchor, the sea in which I swam. It was a long and well trodden path, it shaped my whole life, all my choices, and every experience I had was filtered through that. Challenges came and went and my faith held me through it all, providing the walls for my experience, holding my edges.
That has changed. I don’t know when it began. There were life events, certainly, which shook me I know. There were real shifts in the way I lived. And gradually God grew wider, wilder, more beautiful, more fierce, more loving, more passionate, more mysterious and more terrifying than I had ever imagined. And I found that she was missing in the church.
So I stepped outside.
I find her dancing in the autumn leaves, playing in the rain, singing with the blackbirds, crashing on the shore, creating havoc in the winds, roaring in my blood. It took time, to explore this path, to know who I am here, now. Time of following the seasons, the year’s wheel, the moon’s rhythms. Time of listening and learning from others on this path, a time of gathering tools and sitting with the knowledge that I was being changed forever.
And so I name myself witch.
I understand this is uncomfortable, I know that for some it is anathema, unimaginable, dangerous, evil, wrong. I know the rage and fear it inspires, because that lived in me once. If this is your experience know that I love you, that I am grateful for your part in my life, and that if this is where we part company I wish you every joy and blessing as you journey on. If you’re still here I am excited to be walking with you and look forward to sharing our explorations of faith, of life, of God, of love, as we seek to bring healing and grace to the world we live in, whatever our creed.
Brightest blessing )0(